Complete With a Water Slide

Hey you guys. I've been silent for a while, but that's just because I haven't felt like posting. Stuff has happened, but not enough for me to manage to strength to post about it. I'm fine, btw. Just my family has been wrecked by a stomach virus, so I've basically not eaten for a week. And just when the nausea let go some what I get this horrible cough and my body is aching! Thank god, I've finished all my Christmas shopping! Cause I can't lift a finger right now.

Tomorrow I'm going to watch the ballet the Nutcracker. I haven't seen it since I was ten or something, and I'm hoping I won't be too sick to enjoy it.

I sent out my Christmas letters on Friday and I hope they will all reach you in time for Christmas. I know I was a bit late this year, but I really hope the post will come through.

I celebrated my birthday on Saturday. It was a absolute blast and I haven't laughed that much in ages. There was a lot of vodka and playing of "I never", and I can safely say that I've never been that hung over in my LIFE! (Which really doesn't say much, cause I've never really been hung over before.) The family party on Sunday was horrible. Horrible! I tell you!

So yeah, that's my life right now. I'm twenty and happy, and so very sick. Thank you to everybody who wished me a happy birthday, you are all lovely! &hearts

( Awesome presents I got for my birthday )

On a more personal note: I'm spending way too much time on Facebook and in the last month I've sent over a hundred texts. That's... so not normal. I blame my big giant crush. The logical part of my brain is telling my how ridiculous and stupid I'm acting, but the other part is giggling and saying "But he might show up any minute! And we want to talk to him!" I'm an idiot.

Fandom wise:

I'm so bitter that I have to avoid all Narnia talk. The movie doesn't come out until December 25th here. Yeah, what kind of date is that, anyway?? Who goes to the movies on the first day of Christmas? But on second or third day I'm dragging my family to go watch it.

The few things I've heard isn't all that good, but I'm have an open mind, and I care more about the developing of the characters than I do the story or plot. So really, I don't care if they've changed the whole story as long as Edmund is Edmund and Lucy is Lucy and Eustace is awesome.

People seems to be having fun in the 3 sentence ficathon, which is great! It didn't turn out to be as fun as I'd expected it to be for me, but who cares about that. I'm just not feeling the writing vibes lately. Which is a shame cause I really want to write! But I can't.

I'm also blissfully high on cough syrup right now. I've finally stopped coughing!

I really, really shouldn't be allowed to walk around alone in a bookshop with money in my pocket. I'm going to be one of those people who starves because they have no money... actually no. I love food too much. I'll be someone who doesn't have clothes because she's spent all her money on books. Yeah, that sounds about right.

Edgar's charger is broken. I don't know what's up with me and chargers, but I just can't seem to keep one unharmed. I went to the Apple store today and they'll either fix it or give me a new one. They'd never seen this kind of fault before (the tip with the magnet fell off. Bad glue job?) so they couldn't just give me a new one. It'll take a week or so. So, in about... four hours (that's when Edgar's battery runs out), I'll have to change to my school pc.

Lately I've gotten real interested in picspamming and screen-capping and such. And I was wondering... what kind of tools and programs do people usually use? So far I've only used Paint, but Edgar, being a Macbook, doesn't have Paint and the Apple version is just not good enough. Not that Paint is the best to begin with. It would be fun to be able to do more than just cut it and stuff. I am definitively going to get a screen-capping program, cause I want to cap the shit out of Max Manus. There's almost no good pictures of this movie on the net, so I guess I have to make them myself. Also, after I get some good caps, I'm going to see if I can't trick someone into making some icons for me. Or maybe I'll try making some myself...

Narnia fandom really has two fandoms. If you don’t believe me, then you are not in the Narnia fandom. It took me awhile to understand this and it took me even a longer time to get to terms with this. As a reader I think it’s great, but as a writer it makes me very frustrated because I don’t know which camp I’m in. Let me explain:

There is the original fandom on fanfiction.net, the fandom that write fics based on the books and their fics are nice and pretty sugary. With straight off battles and the good people are good and the bad people are bad, and there are not many grey-zones. There’s no… meta in their fics. Here, Peter is a nice guy, and Lucy has never been drunk in her life. You get my drift.

Then there is the fandom that sprung up after the movies came out, on LJ. They talk and interpret and are not satisfied with the Narnia C.S Lewis wrote about. They talk politics, economy, law and how it really would be to rule a country. Their fics are magnificent.

Why is this relevant? Because I have a confession to make: I am really struggling with my Narnia fics. I don’t know which part I’m part of anymore. One part of me wants to keep writing fluffy pieces because I don’t want to offend my old Narnia friends and my beta, and the other part just want to say screw it and stop posting my stuff on ffnet. Because I really feel that my recent fics (An Art to It and For Duty’s Sake) really clash with what they want over at ffnet.

And what’s the main thing that’s holding me back is my beta. She’s brilliant! I admire and fangirl her so much (you have no idea how happy I was when she offered to beta for me!) but I feel that my view of the characters has changed so much from her view of the characters. (I blame bedlamsbard ) I’m actually really considering changing beta because it’s really cramping my writing and I feel so horrible!

So what I’m working up to say is this: I have been writing this fic for awhile now (it was supposed to be for the femgenficathon)

(and it’s really, really not going to fit well over at ffnet, and I’m not sure if my beta is going to like it and I don’t want her to have to beta this bigass fic that she essentially don’t like, so… )

But the thing is that I’m stuck! And I’ve also lost the second chapter when my comp. died. And… would any of you like to just read it and give me some reactionary comments? Not a fullblown beta, don’t need that just yet, I just need to know that what people think and maybe make some comments on if you think the characters are acting like they should and stuff?

Okay this was rambly and confusing. But it was nice to get that off my chest at least.

Also, read my semi-meta on why I don’t like Peter/Susan.

# I have had an awesome week. I've been to school everyday. I saw Jesus Christ Superstar in norwegian on Wednesday with my class (The play was set in modern-day with Mary Magdalene as a crack head whore and Jesus walked around with pimp-coats and leather pants. I kid you not. It was awesome though. The dude playing Judas was fabulous!)and yesterday I attended a small free concert on the top of the new opera house in Oslo. All in all: GREAT WEEK!

# The Fall Fandom Free-for-All!



Here's my thread.

# Spanish test on Tuesday. English home test due on Friday. And then!! AUTUMN BREAK!! I'm going to London on the October 1. with my mother. We're going to watch WICKED and I'm going to buy tons of cheap books. I'm so excited.

# narniaexchange is posting one fic per day. All the fics so far is so so good, and you should totally go over there and read all the great fics.

Last night I was having trouble sleeping and started to wonder how all of you discovered fanfiction. And that made me think of how I did:

I found it through Gilmore Girls. Yes, you read that right. Gilmore Girls! It was 2005 and I was watching season 5 of Gilmore Girls on tv. (This is also my favorite season and I own in on dvd.) I was rapidly shipping Rory/Logan and found myself frustrated each time an episode was over and that I didn't get more. And since I live in Norway,  I knew that the episodes had already been aired in the US, so I went online to spoil myself and reassure myself that my ship was going to sail. (It did.) Then, on one fansite they had a link to a Gilmore Girls fanfiction site. And I was like, WHAT IS THIS? And I tentatively read a fic or two, and was kinda hooked. I read every R/L fic on that site and after wards went looking for more. That was when I found fanfiction.net.

But still for over a year all I read was Gilmore Girls fic. I knew that Harry Potter fic existed, but I refused to read it. A Harry Potter story not written by J.K Rowling? Not on my life would I read that. Then, on an episode of Pottercast, Melissa Anelli mentioned that she sometimes liked to read Draco/Ginny fic, and I was like... THAT MIGHT BE RELEVANT TO MY INTERESTS! The first time I entered the Harry Potter section on ffnet, I was in Thailand. (I'm not shitting you! I paid for internet because I was going bonkers without checking my inbox.) I found a Draco/Ginny fic (I remember it was an arranged marriage fic and it's still on my favorites page even though I do not have the balls to read it again- it's probably crap.) and I never looked back. Still, the only HP fic I read is almost only D/G.

I was sold. It was a great new world, and I'm never leaving. It made me write. I never thought I liked to write until I discovered fanfiction. Now it's one of my greatest pleasures.

So I ask you, lovely flist. How did you find fanfiction?