One basic fact about me

[caramelsilver]

In the last year I have gotten a lot of new friends. And I realized that all my new shiny friends don't really know some (one) important stuff (thing) about me, because we became friends after it ended. Unless you did some lurking, then you won't get my references to my previous life.

Here's the thing: When I was fourteen I got sick. I had something called M.E or CFS= Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. It resulted in me being tired all the time, my muscles ached, my head was hurting all the fucking time and I could do absolutely nothing. This lasted for four years. For four years I didn't go to school, I almost didn't see my friends, and I did nothing of the things usual teenagers do.

All I did was sleep, eat, watch tv, read books and surf the internet. That's it.

When I discovered fanfiction in 2005, I had been sick for almost a year and it was a lifesaver. I cannot tell you how much fanfiction and fandom has meant to me the last five years. It cheered me up when nothing else did, it gave me something to do that didn't completely exhaust me. I could lie in my bed and still have fun! After a year of reading fanfiction, I started to write my own. When I joined LJ it was the most amazing thing ever. I got new friends who liked me for me, and didn't care that I was sick, because it wasn't an issue when it came to internet friendships. They encouraged me and made me laugh. This was at a time where I had no social life at all in RL. I had lost all my friends because I was no fun to be around. Only my best friend and a few amazing boys bothered to spend time with me. (Ironically I lost touch with the boys after I got well again!)

Then in 2008, I got well again. It happened so quickly, I did a course that completely cured me. And I started school again, I suddenly became fun again. If you go through the archives on my journal you can see a huge difference in my posts. They actually became fun to read. And I got a ton of new friends!

So now you know what I'm talking about when I say things like: “Trust me, I know being sick sucks.” or “When I was sick I...” or “WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT 2005!” This is also the reason why I'm still at school. Had I been a normal kid I should be travelling around the world, or be in the military or just studying at UNI. But I'm still at school, and I will sadly be for two more years.

Ask any questions you may have. I will gladly answer them=)

Comments

[sofisticat.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you got well.

[caramelsilver.livejournal.com]

Thank you =) And thank you! for all your comments, even on the posts that was more boring than paint drying.

[sofisticat.livejournal.com]

Your posts aren't boring ...

[ayascythe.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm one of those who didn't know that yet. I also didn't know that there was an illnes like that! Sounds like it sucks major ass. I'm glad you got well in the end. I'm sorry you had postpone going to school because of it, though, but you can still go travelling around the world and studying in a few years, right? :)

[caramelsilver.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I figured you didn't know. This way you get my casual references! It did suck major ass, and it's not surprising that you have never heard of it. It took us two years to realise that it was M.E that I had. It's getting some press here now, but I don't think it's very known.

And I'm so getting out of here the minute I get my diploma! ;)

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

I didn't know this. I'm really glad you discovered fandom, so I could meet you <3 and I'm really really glad you got well. Losing friends is super hard. you're such a strong person to come through that sort of isolating thing.

[caramelsilver.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you! I'm so glad I met you too!