Complete With a Water Slide

* I am seriously struggling. I am like an emotional jojo: one day everything looks bright and I'm determined to turn my life around, and the next day I can barely get myself out of bed. What the fuck is wrong with me?

* In much cheerier news: grim_lupine wrote the most awesome Edlyn (girl!Edmund) ficlet for me. And it's awesome and you should go read it: There are things of which they do not speak.


* A random thought: I saw Sweeney Todd again and am I the only one who watches that movie and think: "Anthony and Johanna will never last!"? Because dude! She's a girl who just wanted to get away from her perverted guardian and he fell in love with a girl in a window! There's no fucking way that relationship is going to work!

* I swear a lot. Like... pretty bad actually. I mostly only swear in english, which makes it not so bad to the people around me... but lately I'm actually saying: Motherfuckingcocksuckingpieceofshit out loud. I used to only say it loudly in my head, but now I actually say it out loud and I've realised that that is not actually a good thing... Yeah, I am so messed up and I can't seem to be able to do anything about it! GAAAHHH!

* Also: I think I am going to join the military when I'm done with school. I think it would be good for me. Get some discipline, follow orders, get in shape, get to know new people from around the country... Yeah, I think I'd like that.

Lately I've been so very tired. Life has been hard, it has been empty and boring. I think that some of it boils down to that so much of my life revolves around my computer and the internet, and lately I've had to share my pc. (Wow, that sounded bratty.) What I mean is that suddenly I've realized that too much of my life is the internet. And lately I've had to share my computer with my brother and suddenly I had too much empty time on my hands.

I want to share a song with you, it's norwegian, but I'll translate as good as I can. I really love this song. Lately it has been the soundtrack of my life:

Eg ser= I see

Eg ser at du er trøtt,
men eg kan ikkje gå
alle skritta for deg.
Du må gå de sjøl.
Men eg ve gå de med deg.
Eg ve gå de med deg.

I see that you are tired
but I can't walk the steps for you.
You have to walk them yourself.
But I can walk them with you.
I will walk them with you.

Eg ser du har det vondt,
men eg kan ikkje grina alle
tårene for deg.
Du må grina de sjøl,
men eg ve grina med deg.
Eg ve grina med deg

I see that you are in pain,
but I can't cry all the tears for you.
You have to cry them yourself,
but I can cry them with you.
I will cry them with you.

Eg ser du vil gi opp,
men eg kan ikkje leva
livet for deg.
Du må leva det sjøl.
Men eg ve leva med deg.
Eg ve leva med deg.

I see you want to give up,
but I can't live life for you.
You have to live it yourself.
But I can live it with you.
I will live it with you.

Eg ser at du er redd,
men eg kan ikkje gå i døden for deg.
Du må smaka han sjøl,
men eg gjør død til liv for deg,
eg gjør død til liv for deg.
Eg har gjort død til liv for deg.
Eg har gjort død til liv for deg

I see that you are scared,
but I can't die for you.
You have to die yourself.
But I'll make death life for you.
I'll make death life for you.
I have made death life for you.
I have made death life for you.